Yo I'm Shannon or you can call me Hunter, I'm 23 and frankly I'm an odd one :) I hope you enjoy my page :) Message me if you need someone to talk to or just think id make a good internet buddy XD lol
This page has become 90% Shannon rants. But honestly I don’t mind. I need a way to vent an it seems to be working.
This go from bad to good then to worse an I’m sitting here alone, afraid an overwhelmed. I’m trying just to live but Everytime I turn around I’m stuck. Or someone is yelling at me telling me what I’m doing wrong.. like its my choice to be like this. I figured working like this would be hard.. but I figured atleast one place in this town would hire me. I was wrong. Now I’m trapped here. Not even able to get damn cigarettes. I need a break from being afraid that my life is days from becoming an absolute train wreck.
No one is really gonna see this. But I need to get it out. I’m tired. (For anyone who doesn’t know me an see this. I don’t want anyone thinking I’m gonna do anything bad. I’ve died before an it isn’t pleasant so that’s not gonna happen.)
I have always thought of everyone else first. Given my last damn dollar, the little food I have or really anything I could to help someone.. put myself last. I’ve loved so hard that I nearly ended up in a hospital after a breakup.. I try so hard to make everyone happy.. but I never get to be happy. I wake up alone. Sit in my silent apartment alone(apart from the meows an playing noises from my cats). I go to bed alone. I don’t know if I have ever really been loved. For once I want someone to love ME. I want someone to love me the way I love them. I want someone to not be able to imagine a life without ME. I want to be happy.. I don’t know what I did in my past life to deserve the abuse.. my body failing peice by peice.. the ptsd and the fear I feel with every waking moment I am alone. The people I have loved… They were here to reassure me after every startling noise or tear I shed.but every time it was a lie. They were cheating, manipulating or abusing me..Fuck.. ik it is selfish. But come on.. can someone really love me for once! Just once.
I’m so tired of being sick. I’m so tired of being alone. I’m so damn tired of not being loved. I think everyone deserves to be loved atleast once.. so where is mine.. im not dumb enough to belive I’ll live a long life. If I do I will be completely shocked. I’m 24 an one of my organs were rotting inside my stomach, my knees are destroyed, my body is broken in so many places I can’t name them all, the seizures, the migraines, the hearing loss, the vision loss..my teeth.. and the things I habnt told anyone.
I just want to be happy. I want to smile an know I’m safe. I want to wake up an not be afraid. Just for a little while.. I want to get what I want for once.. all I want is to really be loved.
I’m trying to keep calm an recharge after a bad seizure this morning.. an now I have to also deal with my ex starting shit AGAIN. Even tho I blocked him on everything. Acting like I was the problem. All I did was not be able to take the screaming, calling me anything he could come up with an the blaming me. So I blocked him… im done letting people treat me like that. I’m not trying to hurt anyone I just want to be alone..
Struggling to sleep has been such an issue lately.. I hate being this lonely. Going to bed imagining a hand running along my back or the sound of their heartbeat. Fuck I just want love..
Emoji spell to attract financial abundance through the use of your natural gifts and talents so that you can live a financially free life. You deserve it. And you will have it. It’s inevitable.
Can we please stop making scary shark movies? Sharks are pure sweet babies that don’t deserve this slander. They just have bad eyesight. Don’t be mean to them.
(I made a version that should be legible as a bumper sticker and roughly the right proportions. You’re on your own for vectors, I cannot be bothered right now)
alright meeps, we got another one for the “Harold they’re lesbians” list.
